You pay. Because you know exactly what you are. A loser. No "almost," no "technically." Just that. And this tax is your monthly acknowledgment of it. July begins just like all the months before it. With your humiliation. And with your payment. Because it is right. Because that is how it should be. A loser like you has no choice but to pay for his failure. And that will never change. You will keep paying, over and over. Because that is who you are. Because that is who you will remain. And because that is the only place you can ever have in this life.